Tuesday, October 28, 2014

Re-Stocked, Ready to Go



Finally made my way to the store on Sunday to re-stock on some necessities. Among those were tea and midnight snacking supplies (delicious multi-grain bread and peanut butter). I tried a couple new teas this time, including vanilla chai, honey chamomile, and cinnamon apple spice. They're all so delicious in their own regard. I am one happy camper, indeed.

My tea supply is now as follows:

Zen Green, two types of earl grey (because they are, in fact, different),
peppermint, cinnamon apple spice, honey chamomile, vanilla chai, chai spice, PG Tips (basically a staple necessity), and Irish breakfast.

I also replenished my eggnog supply, with pumpkin spice and caramel. And, of course, I ran out of my in-the-moment anti-anxiety drink, ginger ale, so I bought some more of that. Yay!


Now to finish these papers. :/

Friday, October 24, 2014

Feeling a little accomplished

Today the new promo video for my college was released, and I was pleasantly surprised to see that some of my own footage made it into a legitimately, professionally produced video.

I'm excited to see the changes that have taken place not only to and around this campus, but also in the lives of my friends and classmates, over the last three years that I've been here.






The footage was taken from this video:


Tuesday, October 21, 2014

Your Story is Important: The Project

Saturday night I made the official launch for my project, and I'm super excited about it. Not only does the first video already have 140 views (say WHAAAAT), but I just recorded the 11th video tonight. This means I'm already 11% of the way to my goal for the semester (100 videos). But I'm already running into an issue: recording three camera angles means the videos take up a lot of space on my hard drive. Tonight alone I amassed nearly 60GB worth of audio and video for just two people. My hard drive only holds 750GB.

Fortuantely for me, there's a 3TB external drive on my work desk that I may be able to use, but I'm going to need to look into buying something for myself because I don't want to be storing people's stories on something that doesn't belong to me. I also should probably look into a better microphone at some point, but seeing as I don't even have $120 for a 3TB external drive (accounting for purchase plus tax), there's no way I'm going to have $300 or more for a video mic.

But, for now I'm very happy to work with what I have. I guess I just didn't think about how big video files are, or how touchy recording someone's voice can be.

Anyway, here's the launch video. Dave's a pretty cool dude, so check this out.



Monday, October 20, 2014

Down, But Not Out Forever

My heart is heavy tonight, so heavy it feels like it's sank into my stomach. My friend is in jail, and it's something I never would have imagined might happen. Because it's already public on a news site, I'll share it here and explain a little further why it's so heavy on my heart tonight.

His name is Chad, and we've been ministry co-workers since we met in almost 3 1/2 years ago in May of 2011. We had both signed up to attend the same  youth workers' unconference, and he had emailed me asking if we might carpool since we were from the same town. I said sure, and that weekend our friendship was born. We've networked on various events. I've spoken at his youth group. We've had deep talks about life and struggles, praying for one another, popping in regularly to say, "Hey, how's life?"

Over the last year, we've lost touch and drifted apart, our conversations becoming more and more infrequent. Here and there he'd pop into my mind and I'd wonder how he was doing. Then tonight someone sent me a link on Facebook to an Eau Claire news article. Chad was one of nine people arrested in an undercover child sex investigation.

I'm having the most difficult time focusing on this test that's coming tomorrow morning because all I want to do is go home, visit him, talk to him, and pray for him. When one member of the body suffers, the whole body suffers. My heart is heavy for him and I only want to be there for him in this like he was there for me during my own struggles. 


I definitely plan to visit him when I'm in town next. Hopefully I can get other area youth pastors together to go see him, to show him that the body of Christ is still here for him and that we're not going to give up on him. The love Christ has shown me, I want to show him. I won't be another to ostracize someone who is broken and hurting. Not when eternity is on the line.

Wednesday, October 15, 2014

Busy busy, but worth it



Been so busy... I'm almost ashamed I haven't blogged. 


I've finally, finally started a project I've been wanting to do since the summer of 2012. Some of y'all may remember when I was going around with cardboard signs telling people their their stories matter and that their lives have purpose. One time I met a traveler and sat down to listen to her story, and got the idea of collecting and compiling people's stories into one larger story, to show how our lives are all connected and are part of a larger narrative, and ultimately to get them thinking about how God might rewrite their story. Well, I had no way of doing it then and didn't know how I could feasibly go about it, so I put the idea aside and dismissed it as "too great a dream."

Then I got a GoPro and started using it to do video announcements for my school. I was just using it to make announcements for open mic events and other campus happenings. Then I made a single vlog, and thought, "Wait a second..." The idea from two years ago came back into my mind and I realized I had found a feasible means of recording people's stories. So I asked around the staff at my school to find a place where I could set up a video studio, and the librarian said I could set one up in a vacant office in the library. I bought a couple black bedsheets and put them up on the walls, set up tripods and some hitherto unused lights I found in the lighting closet, and set up my cameras. I wanted a third camera to use, and received permission from the school to use one of their camcorders until I can buy an (actual) video camera of my own (which, unless I receive some sort of large donation, won't be happening). Right now I have two GoPros (Hero3 White Edition and Hero3+ Black Edition) and a Samson GoMic portable USB condenser microphone. I'm borrowing a Panasonic HDC-HS300 camcorder from the school as my main frontal camera.

I've recorded six stories. Five happened here on campus. This last weekend I carpooled to Wisconsin for fall break, took cameras equipment with me, and recorded the story of a guy at my church. My goal for the (academic) year is to record 150 stories, which can be done. I have three more booked to record tomorrow night, and may get one or two tonight. I'm hoping that I can get all 150 recorded by May, so that I can begin to work through them over the summer and hopefully be almost finished by next fall. One thing I find interesting is that this is following a similar thread that I was on in 2012 and 2013 with the cardboard signs and last summer when I was hoping to travel the country and play music on the streets. But I think videoing people's stories seems to be a more practical application of the general idea, and one that I can take with me anywhere.

I'm so grateful to be working in the I.T. department at my school because my work Mac has full Adobe Creative Cloud on it, which allows me access to Premiere Pro, After Effects, Audition and Speedgrade for free. And I'm allowed to work in the office on personal projects as much as I want when I'm off the clock. I'm grateful to have gone through the worship arts program at my school because it means I'm allowed access to things like lights and camera and am trusted with these things. I'm grateful for volunteers who are brave enough to sit down behind hot lights for 45 minutes to tell their story into a camera. I'm grateful for the skills and knowledge that I've acquired over time that allows me to be able to do something like this.

I'm beyond thankful for the way this is all coming together, and I'm grateful to the God who can rewrite any story.

Wednesday, October 8, 2014

A Brief Survey

So, I got bored and Googled, "100 Questions." I found a neat survey and, after removing some questions I thought to be stupid and pointless, answered the rest. Here they are for your reading pleasure.





What's the best compliment you've ever received?
Oh boy, I'm not sure. I think I'd have to say when somebody told me, "You seem to be really good at whatever you put your hands to." I took it to heart and found that it tends to be true (to an extent). 

What's one thing you're deeply proud of, but would never put on your résumé?
Once climbed completely out of my car, and then back in while it was moving, with nobody else in it. It was terrifying but awesome. 

What's the most out-of-character choice you've ever made?
Entered a romantic relationship simply for the sake of being in a relationship. It was pretty stupid and I'd never do it again. 

If a mysterious benefactor write you a check for $5000 and said, "Help me solve a problem -- any problem!" What would you do with him or her?
Well first of all, $5000 is a lot of money so I'd initially be pretty skeptical. I would certainly ask them what they want help with. If it's morally and ethically acceptable, and within my ability to help them, I'd certainly do so.Hah. Some of it I did through hard work and determination. Others were kind of whimsical. Most of it was God. 

What's going to be carved on your (hypothetical) tombstone?
So long, and thanks for all the fish. 

What are you freakishly good at?
Freakishly? I haven't a clue. I'm good at a lot of things, but I can't think of any one thing that I'm freakishly good at. 

What's one dream that you've tucked away for the moment?
Finding a life partner.
--Why?
--My reasons are my own. 

What food are you craving right now?
A proper grilled chicken salad. 

If you could have tea (or coffee) with one fictional character, who would it be?
Hmm. You do know I've read quite a few books in my day, don't you? If it had to be anyone, it would be the man in black from The Dark Tower series. 

Do you have a morning ritual?
Get up, get dressed, brush teeth, eat breakfast, drink coffee, go to class. 

Do you believe in magic?
I believe there is witchcraft, but I do not believe people can summon spells. I do believe people can be enslaved by it to demons. 

Is there something that people consistently ask for your advice on?
Yes.
What is it?
Computers. 

Have you ever fantasized about changing your first name?
Yep.
To what?
Pretty much anything besides what it is. This was years ago. Now I couldn't see it as anything else. 

When was the last time you astonished yourself?
In a good or bad way? Because the former seems to happen much less frequently than the latter. 

What's your personal anthem or theme song?
Probably "Exchanging Truth for a Lie" by Least of These. 

Did you ever yearn for your life, before Facebook?
Oh yes. 

What's your definition of an ideal houseguest?
I don't know… I don't get very many. 

If you had an extra $100 to spend on yourself every week, what would you do?
Save up for more (and better) camera equipment. 

If you could sit down with your 15-year-old self, what would you tell him?
I'd tell him that he's worth something and that he's got potential, and that he doesn't want to keep doing what he's doing but needs to buckle down and focus. 

What are you BORED of?
Well, I get bored easily, so I could make quite a list here. Right now, at this moment however, I'm bored of listening to metal. I just don't want it. 

What's the best birthday cake you ever ate?
You know, I'm really not a fan of cake. 

How do you engage with panhandlers on the street?
I like to talk with them. Sometimes I'll take them somewhere for food, other times I'll bring them food, but every time I like to listen to their story and remind them that they're worthwhile. 

Do you think love is chemical, intellectual, or spiritual? Or, do you think it's completely undefinable?
I think it's the first three. There are chemical characteristics that occur in the brain when somebody is in love with someone else. There must be an intellectual assent to the fact that one is in love, and there is a spiritual aspect because it divides your loyalties between God and the object of your affection. 

Have you ever dreamed about starting a business?
Ugh, yes. I started a computer repair business once and it was cool, but it wasn't all that it was cracked up to be. 

Are you afraid of flying in airplanes?
A little. Mostly it's the idea of it, and that's mostly because I haven't done it since I was too little to remember. 

What's your most urgent priority for the rest of the year?
Academics. 

If you could master any instrument on earth, what would it be?
I wouldn't want to master an instrument. Mastery of something implies an end to creativity. So long as creativity endures, skill will always have room to increase. 

Have you ever been genuinely afraid for your physical safety?
Yes. Numerous times, actually. Car incidents, various stunts, fights, etc. 

What are you an expert on?
I'm not an expert on anything. Jack of many trades, master of none. 

Has a teacher ever changed your life? How so?
I don't think anyone can effect change on another, but I have met some pretty influential people. The most influential would be Bobbi Cook, my 6th grade teacher. She was the first person to ever tell me that I had value and potential. 

Are there any household chores you secretly enjoy? Which ones, and why?
Yes. I really enjoy washing dishes because the touch of hot water on my skin is soothing. 

How do you reign in self-critical voices?
This is the most difficult thing in my life. The only way I've found to do this is to cling to the knowledge of who I am in Christ. 

What does FEAR feel like, in your body?
Dying. 

Do you think you're currently operating at 100% capacity.
I would say I'm currently operating at about 60% capacity with the aid of coffee. Without it, I'd probably still be comatose. 

What do you value most? Free time, recognition, or money?
I value a proper balance between the first and the last, and I value more a proper separation of work and play. I don't intellectually value recognition very much because I know it's all a hollow shell, but I emotionally crave it. The trick is getting the emotional voice to shut up and realize it's just going to get hurt if it chases what it craves. 

Are there any laws or social rules that completely baffle you?
It's a federal offense to hop freight trains. In Chippewa Falls, WI, it's illegal to tie your horse to a post in front of a downtown business. 

Would you like to write a book?
No. But maybe. 

If you could choose your own life obstacles, would you keep the ones you have?
I don’t think life would the adventure that it is if we could choose our obstacles. 

Have you ever SCREAMED at someone?
Yes. It was completely out of character for me to do so.
What did they do?
I'd rather not get into it. 

Do you think there's going to be an anti-technology whiplash within our lifetime?
There already is, to an extent. 

When and where do you get your BEST ideas?
It depends, honestly. 

Have you ever met one of your heroes?
I don't know. I wouldn't consider someone I don't know to be my "hero." 

What's in your fridge, right at this moment?
Crème Brulee creamer, pumpkin Spice creamer, almond milk, pumpkin spice eggnog, ginger ale, and a couple Arizona Arnold Palmers. 

Can you tell when someone is lying?
It depends on how good of a liar they are. Usually, though, I can. 

Can you tell when someone is telling the truth?
Not always, but when I'm in doubt I just verify their story later by asking them to tell it to me again. 

Have you ever pushed your body further than you dreamed possible?
Yes, but then again my dreams weren't too spectacular, so… 

Are you living your life purpose, or still searching?
Well, I'm trying. 

Have you ever had to make a public apology?
Oh, sure. I just did so today. Prof left his books on the table by where I normally sit and I thought it was someone in the previous class who did so. I walked up and said, 'What is this?" He then grabbed his books, I apologized, and we all laughed. Good times. 

What's the worst piece of advice you ever been given?
"Here man, take a hit on this. You'll love it." (3 hours of terrible trip later, I went home)

Do you think we're designed for monogamy?
Duh. 

How do you celebrate your victories?
I do a little dance. 

Would you consider yourself an introvert, extrovert, or ambivert?
Introvert, tested. 

Do you ever hunt for answers or omens in dreams?
Eh, I used to. 

Do you think everyone has the capacity to be a leader?
Sure. But the effectiveness of the leadership is another story. 

Is war a necessary evil?
War is completely unnecessary. I don't care if this country was founded on the blood of men. To quote Showbread, "We want the truth that sets us free, not freedom bought with guns." 

Are you a starter, finisher, or implementer?
All three, depending on the situation. 

Have you ever unplugged from the internet for more than a week?
Try 14 1/2 months, once upon a time. 

Do you think we should live like we're dying?
No, but we should live like we could die at any moment. 

Do you have any habits or quirks you wish you could erase?
Sure. I think we all do. But I don't worry too much about it; if it really needs to be changed, then I'll change it. 

What was the most AGONIZING hour of your life?
Ooh… that's a tough one. It's torn between a few, none of which I'm going to share here. 

Would you rather be a lonely genius, or a sociable idiot?
Ironically, geniuses tend to be more sociable while idiots are the ones who find themselves alone. So this question is null. 

Have you ever dramatically changed a habit or gotten yourself out of a rut?
Sure, several times. If I hadn't, I wouldn't be where I am today.

How's you do it? What was your very first job?
Sbarro, in the food court at Oakwood Mall in Eau Claire, WI. It's not there anymore. 

What brings you sheer delight?
Coffee. 

Are you highly useful in a crisis?
Having been in these situations before, I can say that yes, I am. 

Do you like to be saved or do the saving?
I've always had what you might call a "rescuer complex", which would explain my answer to the previous question. But I know that just as much as I would put myself on the line for someone else's sake, others have put themselves on the line for my sake. Ultimately, Christ laid his life down for my sake so that I could be raised with Him to walk in newness of life. Without that, I'd be nothing more than a well-intentioned person. 

What's one mistake you keep repeating (and repeating)?
Procrastination. 

If you were heading out on a road trip right this minute, what would you pack?
Clothes (at least a day's worth extra depending on how long I'm planning to be gone), toiletries, and my laptop bag. 

Do you have any irrational fears?
Sure. 

When you see peers & competitors getting things you want, how do you react?
-shrugs- Meh. Good for them! I really don't care that much about things. Frankly if someone else got the thing I wanted, I'd be happy for them because I'd understand their feeling of joy in receiving that thing. 

If you were to die three hours from now, what would you regret most?Worthless, failed relationships in the past. I really feel like I could have saved those girls a lot of heartache by recognizing my immaturity, keeping my desires in check and not pursuing them, thus protecting their hearts for the sake of the Kingdom. 

What's something you've tried that you'll never try again?
K2. 

If you could enroll in a PhD program with your tuition paid in full by a mysterious benefactor, what would you study, and why?
Clinical Psychology, because beyond grad school it would really help me to learn more about counseling people. Plus, I already want to do it. 

Have you ever had a nervous breakdown?
Oh yes. It happens more frequently than I care to admit. 
How did (do) you recuperate?
Usually a shower and a change of scenery, maybe a short drive through the countryside with the windows down. If it's late at night, a shower and eggnog helps. 

Have you ever set two friends up on a date?
Not that I particularly recall. 

Have you ever questioned your faith, or lack thereof?
I question my faith all the time to find out what the true object of it is: is it God, or is it myself? 

Do you believe that everyone deserves redemption & forgiveness?
Deserves? No. The nature of forgiveness is that it's undeserved. However, everyone needs redemption and forgiveness. 

Do you secretly miss Polaroid cameras?
I do… I really do… 

Do you have any physical features that you try to cloak or hide?
Not really, no. 

What makes you so special, anyway? (Really)
shrugs- I dunno. 

What's in your pocket right now?
Phone, keys, SD cards. 

Ever fantasize about being in a rock band? What would your group be called?

Psh. I've been in a rock band. Though, we were pretty terrible. Our name was "no more silence", and I think silence sounded better than some of our "music". 

What's your guiltiest of guilty pleasures?
Hark the Herons. 

Have you ever stolen anything?
Yep. Got in trouble for it a lot as a kid. Stopped a long time ago. 

When was the last time you saw an animal in the wild?
Do freshmen count? 

What's the hardest thing you ever had to write, and why?
A goodbye letter to a girl I had spent 3 years of my life hung up on. I didn't want to write it, but I knew it was for the best. 

Who's the last person that deeply disappointed you?
I don't remember; I try not keep a record of that kind of thing. 

Have you ever won an award?
Yes.
What was it (and what was it for)?
Editor's Choice Award for writing.

How long can you (comfortable) go without checking your emails or texts?
It depends on the situation. In school I check my student email at least twice a day if I can help it (sometimes I forget). If I'm expecting a text, I check my phone every couple hours to make sure I didn't accidentally miss a buzz. Otherwise I can go weeks on end without touching either.
How do you feel about that?
Balanced. 

What do you deserve & get to receive, no matter what?
The only thing I can trust that I get to receive is salvation in Christ, and ironically it's completely undeserved. 

What are you ready to set into motion today?
Set into motion? I've already got plenty of things in motion to keep up with. However, I'm glad to carefully attend to the things I've already set in motion this semester.

Tuesday, October 7, 2014

Meh

It's been a while since I've written. I swear, I haven't forgotten; I'm just busy. I'll get on it soon.